Saturday, July 21, 2012
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5 things....
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Edge of Glory
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Weigh In
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Wisdom
Emotional Fat
I've had so many people ask me, "do you feel smaller?" And every time I tell them the same thing... nope ! , but then again when I was heavier I didn't feel bigger either. But what I see when I look down and what I see in a mirror are not the same thing . When I take a picture and people say, "wow, you're so skinny" I always tell them that it's an illusion, the camera makes me skinnier (or I have awesome posing skills)
I know this is emotional... so now I'm coming to terms with and learning how to lose my emotional fat.
I don't know who this woman is... but I swear I'm gonna find her (not in a creepy stalker way)...I just want to say thank you for posting her journey were I could find it..
I have always said that weight loss has been the cheapest, yet the most devastatingly cathartic experience therapy I could get. And for weeks now I been saying that I have worked through my issues but the truth is like my weight loss goal I'm only half way there.
5 Things that tuned me in that I was STILL emotionally overweight
Until next time
I know this is emotional... so now I'm coming to terms with and learning how to lose my emotional fat.
I have always said that weight loss has been the cheapest, yet the most devastatingly cathartic experience therapy I could get. And for weeks now I been saying that I have worked through my issues but the truth is like my weight loss goal I'm only half way there.
5 Things that tuned me in that I was STILL emotionally overweight
- Wearing and buying clothes that are two big. Just recently I purchased a 2X shirt thinking it would fit...until I was a badgered into taking it back and exchanging it for a L.
- Comparing this weight loss journey with my past... when clearly the last time didn't work that well..(I gained it all back...and then some)
- Comparing my weight loss journey with others....not gonna lie, I've been super jealous of people pulling in double digits at weekly weigh-in and the most I loss is 2 or 3 pounds.
- Not celebrating my achievement... it's a big deal for me that I'm losing weight...I should really stop telling people that it's not
- Not being 100% honest with myself
So technically this was not supposed to be blog entry... just think of it as an epiphany that I wrote down to share.
Until next time
Thursday, June 28, 2012
5 things weight loss has taught be about myself
1. My body is strong!
In all fairness, after having two transplants I knew how strong my body is, but this weight loss journey reminded be how amazing the human body is, just when you feel like you've pushed yourself to the limit... you body let's you know (after the pain has subsided) that it can go further and do more
2. Love the you body (the way it is right now!)
Looking at ahead can sometimes be harmful when it comes to losing weight, often times I get caught up in the "my goodness I so fat, I must have been ginormous before" syndrome. Even though I'm not at the weight I want to be, my confidence has grown so much, and I'm able to appreciate my curves (and show them proudly!) I can look at the mirror and say, "wow, Ty you look hot today" or "Man, you have awesome skin!" 50 pounds ago that was not happening, the goal was to pass the mirror and fit something... ANYTHING that fit
3.Clothes make a difference
I love bright colors, so I've purposely put away the black, brown, navy
s and grey's and brightened my wardrobe. I'm finding that bright color complement my skin tone and I'm even doing more form-fitting fabrics like spandex... its time for me to step out of the box... so now I'm going with the "I'll try anything once" attitude. As you can tell I'm a bargain huntress... simple reason I don't want to spend a lot of money of clothing I won't be able to fit next summer...
4. Support is the key!
There is no way that I wouldn't have been able to do this and keep accountable if it hadn't been for the support my wonderful Blue Team! (And by extension SJT199). Even my sorority sisters have committed to being healthy. It's amazing what happens when you surround yourself with like-minded individuals who want nothing but to see you succeed and reach your goals. I am blessed to have found such a wonderful group of people who frequently have to talk me off the ledge when I have a sudden and fierce cake craving
5. I love myself! And that makes this totally worth it
As mentioned in a previous post my journey to self love has been a long and arduous one. But (I've said it so many times before) this has been more mental than anything else... when I started to clear the junk from my body, I HAD to clear the junk from my head...there is no other way to look at it..
Until next time!
(1) Target dress http://www.target.com/p/pure-energy-juniors-plus-size-short-sleeve-kimono-dress-assorted-colors/-/A-13816212
(2) Haute Fox Dress http:// www.thehautefox.com/ collections/dresses/ products/ diagonal-stripe-bandage-dre ss
In all fairness, after having two transplants I knew how strong my body is, but this weight loss journey reminded be how amazing the human body is, just when you feel like you've pushed yourself to the limit... you body let's you know (after the pain has subsided) that it can go further and do more
2. Love the you body (the way it is right now!)
| (2) Haute Fox Dress size 1x |
| (1) Target Dress size 2 |
3.Clothes make a difference
I love bright colors, so I've purposely put away the black, brown, navy
s and grey's and brightened my wardrobe. I'm finding that bright color complement my skin tone and I'm even doing more form-fitting fabrics like spandex... its time for me to step out of the box... so now I'm going with the "I'll try anything once" attitude. As you can tell I'm a bargain huntress... simple reason I don't want to spend a lot of money of clothing I won't be able to fit next summer...
4. Support is the key!
There is no way that I wouldn't have been able to do this and keep accountable if it hadn't been for the support my wonderful Blue Team! (And by extension SJT199). Even my sorority sisters have committed to being healthy. It's amazing what happens when you surround yourself with like-minded individuals who want nothing but to see you succeed and reach your goals. I am blessed to have found such a wonderful group of people who frequently have to talk me off the ledge when I have a sudden and fierce cake craving
5. I love myself! And that makes this totally worth it
As mentioned in a previous post my journey to self love has been a long and arduous one. But (I've said it so many times before) this has been more mental than anything else... when I started to clear the junk from my body, I HAD to clear the junk from my head...there is no other way to look at it..
Until next time!
(1) Target dress http://www.target.com/p/pure-energy-juniors-plus-size-short-sleeve-kimono-dress-assorted-colors/-/A-13816212
(2) Haute Fox Dress http://



