Saturday, June 16, 2012
In:
Accountability
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Blue Team
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Everybody Changes
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motivation
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My Fitness Pal
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NSV
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Nutritional values
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Snark
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Transplant
Almost a year later
Since I'm not able to lift anything or exercise I figured I would revisit my blog and apparently I haven't blogged since February... geez... I've been a busy girl... okay maybe not so busy....but LOTS of life changes. So let's take it slow....
SPRING (Feb, Mar, Apr)
This past spring, something snapped in me, I don't know what it was but for the first time I wanted to de-clutter my life and my body.... got rid of people in my life who really just negative and non supportive. It's always a difficult decisions, but one that I haven't regretted yet. This made me more determined to lose weight and get "me" back.... It was also during this time that I learned about my arch enemy.... my arms...but I can't complain... things are shrinking... and I'm happy about it!
SUMMER (May, Jun....)
My mother thinks I'm starving myself, she hasn't come out and say it... but she thinks I don't eat enough food...for the record my base caloric intake is 1310 (more when I exercise,but I am almost always under no more than 200-300 calories) Every time I go over, she tries to feed me...I have to remind her that I do eat cookies, I do have ice cream...I do eat food. But I just make sure that it stays in my range... she continues to look at my like I've starving. Then I took this picture and she damn near lost her mind and determined I was too skinny (notice my arch enemy the hanging arm flab)... clearly she hasn't looked at the scale.
I brought a dress... that's not all that odd...but this dress doesn't have layers or an empire waist to hide the belly fat ... it straight up and down and it shows everything and I brought it!!
Right before my birthday I went shopping for new bras... my boobs are completely unrecognizable they've gone from a 42DD to a 38C...I miss my boobs, and I fear if I continue to lose breast fat at this rate, I'll be a A when this journey is done... Fair readers please pray for my breasts (I can almost guarantee no one has asked for a prayer like that)
But the best part is my BIRTHDAY!! I turned 35 (and to be honest I totally don't think I look 35!)
So many positive and wonderful, and some sad things have happened since the last time I had an entry...but once thing that hasn't changed I remain committed and WILL reach my goal!
Almost a year since I decided to lose weight, and I'm half way there, * feeling positive and excited about the next half of my journey!
* So whenever I tell people how much weight I want to lose they look at me like I've lost my mind. My goal has always been to get healthy... not to get skinny...
Until next time ....
SPRING (Feb, Mar, Apr)
This past spring, something snapped in me, I don't know what it was but for the first time I wanted to de-clutter my life and my body.... got rid of people in my life who really just negative and non supportive. It's always a difficult decisions, but one that I haven't regretted yet. This made me more determined to lose weight and get "me" back.... It was also during this time that I learned about my arch enemy.... my arms...but I can't complain... things are shrinking... and I'm happy about it!
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flabby arms |
My mother thinks I'm starving myself, she hasn't come out and say it... but she thinks I don't eat enough food...for the record my base caloric intake is 1310 (more when I exercise,but I am almost always under no more than 200-300 calories) Every time I go over, she tries to feed me...I have to remind her that I do eat cookies, I do have ice cream...I do eat food. But I just make sure that it stays in my range... she continues to look at my like I've starving. Then I took this picture and she damn near lost her mind and determined I was too skinny (notice my arch enemy the hanging arm flab)... clearly she hasn't looked at the scale.

Right before my birthday I went shopping for new bras... my boobs are completely unrecognizable they've gone from a 42DD to a 38C...I miss my boobs, and I fear if I continue to lose breast fat at this rate, I'll be a A when this journey is done... Fair readers please pray for my breasts (I can almost guarantee no one has asked for a prayer like that)
But the best part is my BIRTHDAY!! I turned 35 (and to be honest I totally don't think I look 35!)
So many positive and wonderful, and some sad things have happened since the last time I had an entry...but once thing that hasn't changed I remain committed and WILL reach my goal!
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almost half there! |
Almost a year since I decided to lose weight, and I'm half way there, * feeling positive and excited about the next half of my journey!
* So whenever I tell people how much weight I want to lose they look at me like I've lost my mind. My goal has always been to get healthy... not to get skinny...
Until next time ....
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
In:
Blue Team
,
Current Weight
,
motivation
,
NSV
,
Nutritional values
,
Snark
Mirror, Mirror on the Wall
I have to write when the mood strikes me... and yes (a month later) it's hit me again (I'm such a bad blogger)
Fist of all let me say this to all my weight loss/ healthy livers... I hate, hate, hate those weight loss commercials, now I'm not saying that those programs don't work, (I used to do Weight Watchers... it works), but this dueling divas nonsense is getting on my nerves. Between Jennifer, Mariah and Janet I'm not sure who annoys me more ...okay...let me take Janet out of the equation, cause honestly she just walking in an incredibly ornate show outfit with a semi- bored sounding voice over...
Now I have to chose between Mariah Carey and her 7 octive yet highly annoying voice mixed in with a dance beat that I haven't heard since the 90's.... the only plus size to this commerical is she is gernally wearing more clothes that she usually does... and that's not saying much OR we can go with Jennifer Hudson who sings a mirad of songs (non of which she wrote) which are supposed to be inspiring but really just annoy me further all while looking like a human bobble head wearing black and white.... lest not forget the expectional commercial where she is singing with her younger, heavier self... non of these are inspiraring me to do anything other than turn the channel, who did they test market this crap with....skinny bitches?!
For the longest time I've struggled with the "big picture" while losing weight..so far I've lost over 25 pounds and while that may seem like a lot, I'm still at the point where I can't really see a difference, yeah my clothes fit differently and some items are way too big for me now, but to me my body looks exactly the same... that was until yesterday when I looked at my self...I mean really looked at myself. ... in a mirror.... NAKED ..
I normally don't look at myself naked, honestly I try not to, I figure I know what's there and what it looks like...no need to look and inspect...until I noticed that my boobs were smaller, then I turned to the side and noticed that my "roll" had deflated...then I looked at my thighs and realized they weren't as firm as the used to be... same with my stomach... then I noticed I had a mole right below my belly button... WHAT THE HELL!!! Who knew that was there!! Clearly this means that I have to stand nakes in front of a mirror more often... maybe in six months.

Fist of all let me say this to all my weight loss/ healthy livers... I hate, hate, hate those weight loss commercials, now I'm not saying that those programs don't work, (I used to do Weight Watchers... it works), but this dueling divas nonsense is getting on my nerves. Between Jennifer, Mariah and Janet I'm not sure who annoys me more ...okay...let me take Janet out of the equation, cause honestly she just walking in an incredibly ornate show outfit with a semi- bored sounding voice over...
Now I have to chose between Mariah Carey and her 7 octive yet highly annoying voice mixed in with a dance beat that I haven't heard since the 90's.... the only plus size to this commerical is she is gernally wearing more clothes that she usually does... and that's not saying much OR we can go with Jennifer Hudson who sings a mirad of songs (non of which she wrote) which are supposed to be inspiring but really just annoy me further all while looking like a human bobble head wearing black and white.... lest not forget the expectional commercial where she is singing with her younger, heavier self... non of these are inspiraring me to do anything other than turn the channel, who did they test market this crap with....skinny bitches?!
For the longest time I've struggled with the "big picture" while losing weight..so far I've lost over 25 pounds and while that may seem like a lot, I'm still at the point where I can't really see a difference, yeah my clothes fit differently and some items are way too big for me now, but to me my body looks exactly the same... that was until yesterday when I looked at my self...I mean really looked at myself. ... in a mirror.... NAKED ..
I normally don't look at myself naked, honestly I try not to, I figure I know what's there and what it looks like...no need to look and inspect...until I noticed that my boobs were smaller, then I turned to the side and noticed that my "roll" had deflated...then I looked at my thighs and realized they weren't as firm as the used to be... same with my stomach... then I noticed I had a mole right below my belly button... WHAT THE HELL!!! Who knew that was there!! Clearly this means that I have to stand nakes in front of a mirror more often... maybe in six months.
