Change in Progress: Weigh In

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Saturday, July 21, 2012

In: 5 things.... , Edge of Glory , Weigh In , Wisdom

Emotional Fat

I've had so many people ask me, "do you feel smaller?" And every time I tell them the same thing... nope ! , but then again when I was heavier I didn't feel bigger either. But what I see when I look down and what I see in a mirror are not the same thing . When I take a picture and people say, "wow, you're so skinny" I always tell them that it's an illusion, the camera makes me skinnier (or I have awesome posing skills)

I know this is emotional... so now I'm coming to terms with and learning how to lose my emotional fat.

I don't know who this woman is... but I swear I'm gonna find her (not in a creepy stalker way)...I just want to say thank you for posting her journey were I could find it..

I have always said that weight loss has been the cheapest, yet the most devastatingly cathartic experience therapy I could get. And for weeks now I been saying that I have worked through my issues but the truth is like my weight loss goal I'm only half way there.

5 Things that tuned me in that I was STILL emotionally overweight

Wearing and buying clothes that are two big. Just recently I purchased a 2X shirt thinking it would fit...until I was a badgered into taking it back and exchanging it for a L.
Comparing this weight loss journey with my past... when clearly the last time didn't work that well..(I gained it all back...and then some)
Comparing my weight loss journey with others....not gonna lie, I've been super jealous of people pulling in double digits at weekly weigh-in and the most I loss is 2 or 3 pounds.
Not celebrating my achievement... it's a big deal for me that I'm losing weight...I should really stop telling people that it's not
Not being 100% honest with myself

So technically this was not supposed to be blog entry... just think of it as an epiphany that I wrote down to share.

Until next time

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

In: Accountability , Blue Team , Flabby Arms , Learning along the way , Longevity , motivation , My Fitness Pal , NSV , Ondeland , Walking , Weigh In , Wisdom

Up, Down....Half way to Onederland

Maybe I should say more than half way...

a collage of me

This morning I notice that I am more than half way through my weight loss journey. My goal has always been to lose 100 pounds... although my mother thinks that way too much, she can actually thinks I should lose 10 more pounds and be done...psst not gonna happen.

GOALS, GOALS, GOALS....

When I first starting losing weight I only wanted to look better in my clothes... and I wanted my stomach to not be so fat and I so happy to say that I've accomplished both of those goals

My next goal is Toning.... I need to get rid of the flab.. I swear when I lay down I feel it just plop on me..so that is defiantly the next to go along with the weight.

Do I have a goal weight... not really (despite to goal of 100 pounds) but I for sure want to out of the two's.

My "Ditch the Bitch" vacation is over. This week the Blue Team weighed in after a six week vacation. This was our last official weekly weigh in.. and I couldn't be happier about it. In the past I have been so focused on the scale and not the overall transformation,

So starting next week we begin out monthly weigh in...which I personally feel is better indicator of weight loss than the weekly, and I think it will change the atmosphere of the team.

This week I have been plagued with challenges; the extreme heat, my reoccurring insomnia, numerous doctors appointments and an upcoming family reunion where I'm 90% sure that the temptation to indulge will be there... so I'm vowing before it even happens, to do something active every single day of the reunion and to stay within my calorie range...plus I'm currently on a streak on myfitnesspal...so far 296 s days of logging in my food intake and exercise. (I'm a beast!!!)

With the heat and not being able to sleep it's making my ability to exercise down to nil, I have been walking in the wee hours of the morning to get some sort of exercise as well as to try to tire myself out...what ever this is I'm hoping that it passes soon so that I can get back to normal

So what's the deal with the candy? It's an activity for the kids at the banquet. I had to count each and everyone of those pebbles of sugary goodness..and I didn't eat one... that in it's self is a victory!

Here's a little ditty for ya... until next time!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

In: Accountability , motivation , NSV , Weigh In

I have been missing from this blog for several months. The main reason for that was because I really had nothing to say, not because I had given up, or changed my mind about getting healthy. I had spent the time trying

to figure out what I wanted to do with this space. While I was on hiatus I realized a few things.

This is no longer about the scale, yes losing weight is a goal, but it's not the only goal. I started this journey for to become healthier and educate myself about why I eat and how I'm eating. Every week has presented a different challenge for me, and not every week there is a change on the scale. I accept that. I didn't get this way over night, and I realize that change take time.... or as the new title suggests "CHANGE IN PROGRESS". If getting to my goal weight takes two years.. I'll take it. Everyday I'm learning something about myself, everyday that I'm seeing changes in myself... from feeling better about myself to pants that are becoming looser and looser.

My NSV are outweighing my scale victories. And for now, I'm content with that

Friday, September 30, 2011

In: 30/40/50 Challenge , Donnie Wahlberg , motivation , Nutritional values , Weigh In

My "Secret" Shame

Frequently I talk to Donnie Wahlberg, okay my imaginary version of Donnie Wahlberg (I'm not crazy....okay I'm not THAT crazy) Usually he doesn't get me into trouble but today he did... take a look at the excerpt of our conversation below

IDW: Stay and watch Blue Bloods with me
T: But I need to do my 30/40/50 today..
IDW: Tomorrow, you can do them tomorrow
T: I guess, you're right Donnie, I did dance like a stripper today
IDW: A stripper...do tell......

****Which leads me to secret shame... POLE DANCING!*****

This is what I think I'm doing

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I find the exercise to be fun, and funny (I laugh through most of the moves), and my cat Elmo seems to wonder what the hell I'm doing dancing against the shiny scratching pole. But it's movement and it get's my heart rate up, and one day I'm gonna get some courage and take a proper class so that I can dance for my boyfriend... but for now, I'm just trying not to break my arm, foot , or pride...lol

This is probably what I'm doing

Thanks to ThaPriSSyViXXXen and TheWhiteTrashNetwork for the use of their wonderful videos. To check out more of their videos follow the links

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So yesterday I didn't blog, I was being lazy and Vampire Dairies was on. But in ordiance with being accountable I am posting my values for yesterday.

Totals	1080	88	55	63
Your Daily Goal	1410	194	47	53
Remaining	330	106	-8	-10
	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein

So I went a little over on the fat and the protein .. can you believe it... I actually met my protein requirement for the day!
Still under my recommended caloric intake for the day

Today I did better.....

Totals	1284	117	42	48
Your Daily Goal	2013	276	67	75
Remaining	729	159	25	27
	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein

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Oh and I forgot the BEST part, I got on the scale today which I do every Friday without fail... and I was down 12.8 pounds!!! Okay, Okay 10 of those pounds I gained during the time I was sick (and on my blogging hiatus) but the number is different (and lower than it was the week before and that's all that counts. So Tyra now weighs 254.6!! And that makes me happy. I got some snazzy fall pants I want to rock once there weather gets a little colder...

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As always when you know better, you do better ....until next time!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

In: 30/40/50 Challenge , Accountability , motivation , Nutritional values , Transplant , Weigh In

How deciding a life of yes turned into a challenge part 2

So I weighed in on a whim... GOOD NEWS!!! Second of all let me say that I'm hurting and in desperate nee of a massage, even the nail on my pinkie toe is crying out in agony. But nothing a banana, two Tylenol and a bottle of water can't fix (I hope).

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I have an issue that is counteracting my weight loss... most days I don't eat enough. Having two transplants and several abdominal surgeries has made me a very picky eater, so a lot of time it takes a lot of effort to eat 3 meals and 2 snacks a day. My eating style has always been a grazer, eat a little here... eat a little there, and a few hours later I'm full.. The reason I bring this up is because I logged in my food and exercise info MyFitnessPal and out came this bit of info.

Totals	990	160	31	23	20	3000
Your Daily Goal	1991	273	66	74	40	2500
Remaining	1001	113	35	51	20	-500
	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Sugar	Sodium

*You've earned 581 extra calories from exercise today

**Based on your total calories consumed for today, you are eating too few calories. Not only is it difficult to receive adequate nutrition at these calorie levels, but you could also be putting your body into starvation mode. Starvation mode lowers your metabolism and makes weight loss more difficult. We suggest increasing your calorie consumption to 1,200 calories per day minimum.

I was using SparksPeople, and I had no problem with them expect I couldn't sync information if I put it into my phone... and that was a plain in the but...who wants to enter information more than once? But otherwise it was a great program.

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Now back to this 30/40/50 challenge, If Sweat is my Fat Crying, My fat is severely depressed cause I was sweating like a pig in a sauna...it was not pretty!

Already I can see that I may need to modify these exercises to fit my needs (that's not cheating is it) maybe I should say my knees....those squats are not knee friendly at all and considering my knees are yelling at me, "WHY!!????!!" I'm gonna have to do something about that or no more challenge or walking for me.

That was so me tonight, except with a lot more sweat, and lots of crying and gasping for breath.... and don't forget the cursing!

And finally I got a new motto, from the newest member of the BLUE TEAM Jenny. "If I BITE it, I WRITE it!"... talk about accountability... Way

to Go!!!

Friday, September 9, 2011

In: Accountability , Nutritional values , Transplant , Weigh In

One of those days

I'm not sure if it was because it's Friday or because it's was a foggy and rainy day, but I was dog tired today.. After my morning obligations I returned home around 10:00am only to go back to bed and wake up at 4:00pm and I'm still tired. I know my body is not used to the new things that I am doing to it.. and maybe this is my body's way of telling me to knock it off....but I'm hard headed and I like to have things my way... so I'll contiune on this journey...

SW: 259 CW: 255 GW:180

I got on the scale today... I decided that when I did this that my official weigh-in day would be Friday's. Let me say I wasn't expecting anything since I started this Monday and had lots of yummy BBQ to celebrate the end of summer...So this mornign I get on the scale with my smug know-it-all attitude and low and behold... 4 pounds... I LOST 4 pounds!! That was the best way to start the day.

This weekend I'll be heading to Milwaukee for Froederts & The Medical College of Wisconsin's 12th Annual Transplant Picnic. I'm excited to see my team, and hear doctors speak about transplant related issues, and all the great SWAG I get... did I mention the event is catered my Saz's... my mouth is watering already.. I'm sure my bestie will want to do something active, the last time I was in Milwaukee, She made we walk through the grocery store for fours hours then made me cook her dinner, I'm hoping she'll be gentler on me this time around.

Clearly I over did it on the fats today... gotta work on that

NUTRIENTS:	GOAL	TODAY
Calories:	1,420 - 1,770	1,313
Fat:	37 - 65	64
Carbohydrates:	188 - 271	106
Protein:	60 - 146	69

I found my self saying this a lot this week, and this might be my daily weight loss mantra. RECOGNIZE, REGROUP, and REDO. Every day's not going to be a good day, there will be days when I will slip up, but everyday is a change to change and start over again.... until next Monday.....

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